When I first met him, I was besotted, there was a certain aura about him and I knew he was my dream man.
5 yrs later I'm shattered, disillusioned and on the verge of breaking down.
Yes, he was cheating on me and I was angry, angry with myself for trusting him so implicitly, apart from being in a state of shock and anguish there was also bewilderment. I made up with him so many times and even took the blame for his cheating. Remorse was changing into bitterness.
Right now I am in my own world, which is spinning just too fast, I feel like a zombie merely existing instead of living.
The words that he threw my way have left me destroyed, how could the person I loved with all my heart and soul treat me like trash, he now says he doesn't love me and he hates being around me.
I'm so unhappy that I cry myself to sleep every night hoping never to wake up to reality.
This pain is destroying me, I only pray that I heal because I feel helpless and destroyed.