I am very confused and hurt and all I want is to know the truth about my one love.
I am a 31 year old female with 2 wonderful
children from my current husband.
I left my hometown and my one true love over ten years ago without ever knowing what would ever of come of the two of us. I loved this guy so much and had since I was in High School, we where in all the same classes and we always hung out together. He knew how I felt about him but he would never commit to me, he would never tell me how he felt about me but we were always together, we would talk on the phone all the time when I wasn't at his house or he wasn't at mine. He always had a girlfriend but it never seemed to matter, I would spend the night with him and his girlfriend would come over the very next day and I would be there. This went on for about a year and a half and I just couldn't handle it anymore, I truly loved him and it hurt me very much that he just would not admit or commit to me.
When I was 21 I moved away to live with my Aunt & Uncle up north, I never even told him I was leaving, I woke up one morning and called my mom to ask her for a ride to the bus station. I thought if I moved away I would forget about him and I could start a new life and be happy, well I never could forget about him, I went down south to visit my family twice a year for a few years and he and I would see each other and talk on the phone while I was there just like we did before I moved away. A few years later I met my current husband and we had our first child, whilst I was pregnant I went down south and of course I just had to see him. It has been almost 8 years now since the last time I have seen him. I have been with my husband now for 9 years and I am not happy at all. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about Jack and wonder "What if".
After all of these years I finally got up the nerve to write to him to say Hi! I am not sure if he ever got the letter or not but he has not contacted yet and maybe he won't. I hear that he has a new baby and I just want to know if he is happy and to tell him the things that I should of 14 years ago.
I truly believe in my heart that we were meant to be together, maybe not then and maybe not now, but I will always love him and I will always be here for him no matter what.
I plan on moving back down south sometime this year with my children and hopefully then I will be able to see my one true love even if it is just to say "Goodbye" I truly believe that if it was meant to be it will happen one day, don't give up hope, just pray and continue to live your life one day at a time and see what happens.
Reading these stories has given me lots of hope, I have read some that were similar to mine and at the end they where together and Married after 30 something years apart. Congratulations to those who have found their loves once again and to those still waiting.
May god bless you always and know that you are not alone.... JAS.........