I was 27 years old, separated and had 3 kids, I felt like I had no future.
I was feeling sad, lonely, hurt, confused and like I had no where to turn. Then my friend took me out to a bar. We were dancing and I walked across the dance floor as my eyes met the most gorgeous pair of green eyes. He asked me to dance, I was floating on air. Was this real? He held me and we danced to "One Small Miracle", he held me so close, I felt like a queen in his arms. Instantly I fell in love and fell hard.
He had my heart from the moment we met. I would never love like this again. We dated for several months. We had a long distance relationship not getting to see each other very much. But I was happy just hearing his voice. One night he called and out of the blue told me to go to hell, and never call him again. I was devastated, I didn't know how to go on. After two months he called me out of the blue, I was so happy and ready to jump right back into his life, bed and anything he would let me. We dated again for several months, same thing, calls and dumps me again. How could this happen again, I thought? I knew it would take my one small miracle to get him back. I never gave up but went on with life, dated other guys, but never felt the same love as I do for him.
I decided to write him a letter and give it another shot. I couldn't let the love of my life go without one more try. I told him how much I loved him and how I would move heaven and earth for him. And begged him to give us another shot. I needed him so in my life.
Finally about a week later the phone rings it's his voice on the end. I knew then there was a God and his was on my side. He asked me to be his once again, so I dropped my life and went to see him, making love once again. I was in Heaven, I had my Miracle. He promised he would not give up this time and give us a shot. Told me he wanted a life with me. We would raise his daughter and my 3 kids together. Everything was going great, we talked of getting married, moving into a new place and starting a life. Then the dreaded phone call at 2am, he was drunk and ended it again. I still love him, and I know I always will, I just can't see why he keeps ending it. It has been over a year now and no calls from him this time! I need an answer once and for all, why, Ronnie, help me understand. I have loved you from the moment we met and I will go to my grave with that love. I don't know how to go on, not a day goes by that you aren't in my thoughts and prayers. Just remember that there's a lady in North Carolina, from the CMB, that loves you and is always yours!
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Thanks for listening to my tears and heartache!