I was in high school when I met my love of my life.
He is one year older than me, but our circles of friends intermingled. At the time I was going through a painful period in my life and I was being a little self-destructive. I was looking to change my decisions and my life. There was something about him that seemed so balanced and he was so responsible and respectful. I admired him so much. He was so cute too.
I confided in a couple of my friends that I liked him. I didn't know if he ever noticed me, until I ran into one of his old friends. At the beginning of school, I chopped off my hair to a very short length. When I ran into his friend, his friend said that he told him that I cut my hair. To me that was a sign that he at least noticed me. He was so shy, so I decided to ask him out on a date. I have never been so nervous, but I really liked him. He said yes! I remember going into my classroom and screaming to one of my friends that he had said yes. I was so excited.
We dated every weekend. Within a few weeks we decided to go out as boyfriend and girlfriend. We began dating in October and said I Love You in the end of December. In October, my grandmother passed away. She died of cancer. He was so wonderful and loving towards me. I think the time of me mourning for my grandmother, I truly fell deeply in love with him. We have been dating for 4 years. He showed me so much about myself although I may not have given him the love that he deserved at first. I may have changed my bad decisions, but I still had a hard time appreciating real love.
I fall more and more in love with him every day. We had to take a break from each other this October because I have a lot of things I need to sort out. My parents are getting a divorce and my mother committed adultery. Realizing these two things have made me question the way I treat my boyfriend. He is wonderful and I just hope he knows everyday that I love him so much. I pray to God that he is safe everywhere he goes and I always want him to know how much I love him.
Pookie, I love you more and more each day. You are my love of my life. I miss you more than I ever thought I would miss anyone.
You are the most special person in the world to me. Always know that.