When I first met him I was happy. I was with someone who loved me very much. ok, so I may not have loved him but I liked him a lot and he made me happy. Then he came along and turned my world upside down. Now this will probably sound corny but it is true; from the moment I saw him I knew I loved him. It hit me like nothing I had ever known before. It was like I suddenly realising my purpose in life; to love this stranger.
When people say you have one person in the world who you are meant to be with forever, well I thought he was it. How naive could I be. He came into my life and showed me what I thought was true love. I gave up everything for him, a man who loved me, my friends, I even left home to be with him. I would have done anything for him, I would have died for him. Then one day, it's all over.
He's back with his ex-girlfriend and seems to have no recollection of ever loving me. He decided it was all over, no explanations, no apologies just a "see ya later".
I gave him my heart and he threw it back at me and I'm left to pick up the pieces. But I don't know if I can do it. I've been through some things in my life that have been hard but I've got through them and stayed strong, but I don't know if I can do it anymore.
I'm just so tired. Tired of being strong, tired of telling everyone I'm ok and looking after myself. I love him so, so much. I just don't know what to do. I don't understand how he can say he loves me more than anything in the world and then just turn his feelings off.
Everyone tells me it will all be ok that I will get over him, but I won't, I can't- he's my life, I have nothing if I don't have him.
It hurts so much, it's like everything's caving in and I can't find a way out. I just don't know what to do.