“It just won’t work, it’s not fair on you, I will end up hating you, and I don’t want that to happen”
“Please” I sobbed, “I don’t care if I get to see you only once a year” obviously I did, it's just at that moment when you know your loosing someone you would actually do or say anything to make them stay.
He left in autumn, University life changed his feelings toward me in a week, a week for God sake, I knew things would be different but a week was a little insulting don’t you think?
“Its someone else isn’t it? Just tell me, look me in the eyes and tell me it’s not someone else”
So he looked me in the eyes and told me coldly, that he had slept with someone else the night before, I threw up!
After hours of pleading and lowering my self-esteem to the floor, he walked out the door and my life forever.
It has taken me almost five months to realise why this is all happening, on the outside I look ok, on the inside I’m still longing for him. I believe deep down that if you’re truly loved by someone then they will never leave, but a part of me is holding onto the fact that if you let thenm go and they come back then they’re yours forever.