LOVE, Can’t you see I’m Alone?
“Love is a condition in which the happiness of the one you love is essential to your own.” People say love is mysterious, love is blind, love is generous, love is silent and deeply profound. There is no technical definition of love for its definition is primarily dependent on the lover. In other words the only one capable of defining love is the lover himself. Thus, words are not enough to define love.
Is loving someone who’s already taken a form of an illicit love and a sin?! If so, then let me be the GREATEST SINNER the world ever had! I always dream for a girl who would love and accept me for who I am. Someone whom I could spend the rest of my life with. Someone who would care for me and give meaning to my life. Someone who means everything. “Love is playful” ika nga.
At this point in time I am madly in love with someone. I could say that falling in love with her is one of the most painful part of loving. Yes it is. I loathe her whenever he cares and make me feel special where in fact at the end of the day it only means friendship and nothing but friendship. I know that loving her is wrong due to the fact that her heart is owned by someone else. “the end does not justifies the means” ika nga. But what can I do? I simply love her without problems or pride. I promised myself that loving her ends there. No expectations and nothing else but to love her and love her forever! My love for her is much too strong to die! “nasisiraan n ako ng ulo! hahaha”
She maybe the perfect gir but unfortunately I’m not the right man for him. She is the reason why I smile, the reason for my tears and the reason for every reason in my life. Her red lips are comparable to that of a red rose in a creek. Her smile is pure, unexplainable and true that can be compared like an angel in the sky. Oh every time I see her smile, it makes me fly like birds in the sky! I could always see her deep eyes in blue and sparkling like stars in the sky. Attraction then love followed! Nah! What an Interconnectedness?! She deserves to be treasured and cherished forever. Her gaze is enough to turn me into petrified ashes! Words are not enough to give justice to what I truly feel for her. My feelings for her are unexplainable and true. I cringe whenever I see her; butterflies in my tummy are over looming! I guess this wouldn’t happen without her! I never loved someone half way like the way I loved my parents than her.
I guess falling in love with her has its pros and cons. She makes me happy unconsciously which keeps me inspired in my everyday life. But on the other side of the story, somehow it made me weak and not contented with my life due to the reality that she could never be mine. Before I met her, I used to be a positive person who has a positive perspective in life. I used to be optimistic, happy being single and contented with my life. I always cry. There are so many questions in my mind vis-à-vis my love for that person but I guess time is the only thing that is capable of understanding the real and true meaning of love. There is this emptiness inside that only he could fill. Be that as it may, I am trying to accept the fact and reality that in my absence, the person I love found her happiness.
I guess God is teaching me a hidden lesson, a lesson which I will never forget for the rest of my life. I hope to find the same soon.
As such, I realized that love indeed conquers all and it would really bring out the stupid part in you. Falling in love is a nice feeling that everyone would like to last forever, but it is altogether proper and fitting for us to remember that pain is a partner of love. Sometimes I question God, why is it that she can’t be mine? Why is it that I fell in love with that girl? There are a lot of questions in my mind. But I guess that’s part of loving, you just have to look at the brighter side of everything. As the old saying goes “love is blind and lovers cannot see the pretty follies that themselves commit.” Now I would like to reiterate, ‘is loving someone who’s already taken a form of an illicit love and a sin’?! If so, then let me be the GREATEST SINNER the world ever had!