I admit I STILL LOVE HIM eventhough im BETRAYED!!!
i met this guy about 3 or 4 months ago.Im so into him and i hate it much-maybe!HAHA...His name is Elvin and he is 5 years older than me i guess (-: He is so bubbly and very fun to be with..We both like "music" and he is VERY talented and that made me fall for him more!...I was totally inspired (-: Everytime i think of him, it really draws a wide smile in my face :-D I always talk to my friends about him eventhough i knew that they dont like him for some reasons..I thought it was just a simple crush but then I realized that it was more than that...We talk everytime we meet and exchange messages sometimes..Im falling even more inlove with him EVERYDAY -i SWEAR!!!
I have this friend whom I always share my feelings for that guy...She is like a sister for me and she knows that I love her just like a sister...and I never thought she could do something to me which would really break my HEART!!!
I heard rumors about her and elvin but since I have a great trust to her knowing that we are friends I never believe at all...But came one day, that issue was cleared!!!It was really unbelievable and I was very much disappointed..I felt betrayed and it was the worst feeling that I had ever felt and the worst situation that I had been into...
I hate him...I thought that our feelings were mutual and Im pretty much sure that i wasnt assuming at all because he is kinda showing to me or letting me feel that he likes me too..he is such a great pretender or I dont know maybe I just did misinterpret everything..I really dont know!he is so WHATEVER!
..maybe Im just confuse or maybe Im too young to understand!!
...BUT since friendship for me is more important than anything else ofcourse I forgave her without any hidden hatred at ALL!!!!!I love her and that would stay the same...
eventhough i now hate elvin,,, Im still loving him in silence!!!
----Im now trying to neglect him or even my feelings for him but i admit I STILL LOVE HIM eventhough im BETRAYED!!!