A love i wanna try to keep
I was 14 and it was the first or second week of July in 2009. My church youth group and I went to this camp for a week. I was really shy and quiet at the time. It was a Wednesday and we could do whatever we wanted for like 2 hours. So my friend and I wanted to hang out with this guy (guy #1), whose an 8th grader, from our church but you were not allowed to go to places with people that’s not the same sex as you, not unless you went in pairs. So, this other guy (guy #2), whose a sophomore, from our church volunteered to go with us. There was a thunder storm that day and it was like in the 60’s or 70’s. We went to this little café place and sat down on the seats they had. We sat there for a while and talked about the rain and how we wanted to go play in it. Me and my friend had taken a shower, so we were already wet. After like 5 minutes, we got up and went outside to play in the rain. I was being fun and crazy that day. I pushed guy #2 in the rain and he dragged me with him. Well, while we were walking back to shelter I slipped and fell. It really hurt and I was about to cry but guy #2 helped me up and gave me his sweater to wear. So I put it on and realized that he was good looking, funny, fun, and I think I was falling for him. He said he wouldn’t let me fall again and I believed him.
After camp we started talking a lot. We would call each other and talk on the phone for minutes and we would get in those deep conversations. It came to the point where we were telling each other about our past. Good and bad things. I told him things that I wouldn’t tell anyone! I really liked him. My first year of high school was about to start and I was scared and soooooo…nervous. I would cry because I didn’t know what people were gonna do or think about me and I was hoping I wouldn’t get thrown in a trash can like all freshmen mostly do. One night I called him and he kinda got me to not be worried about high school. He said that nobody was gonna throw me in a trash can and if they did, all what I had to do was tell him and he would throw them in a trash can. Well he started driving to my house and would stay for like 20-30 minutes. I think it was a Tuesday when we were talking on the phone and he told me that he liked me and asked if I felt the same way. Of course, I said yes. So, we started talking about that for a while till I had to go. He never asked me out. Days had gone by and I kinda gave up. We would still talk to each other and he would still come over but he just never asked me out. But, September 21, a Monday, he called me after school and said can I come over I wanna ask you a question and I said sure. So, he came over and just before he was about to leave he said “wanna go out with me?” I said yes, we hugged, and he left. I thought he would never ask me out. Cause seriously, what sophomore would want to go our with a freshmen??? And I thought he liked this other girl whose a cheer leader but he said that he would never go for her because she a whore.
We have been going out now for 5 months and I love him with all my heart. Saying ‘yes’ to him was the best decision I have ever made! I wouldn’t trade him with anyone! Hes perfect in my eyes. I cant get enough of him. Hes protective and respectful. Nobody can take his place. He amazing and he drives me crazy! We were meant to be together. We were planning to get married and have kids to carry on his last name. Hes everything I have ever wanted but im about to lose him and I was trying to prevent that. You see my dad is in the military so we move around a lot, and 2 weeks ago he told me that we were…moving :( I cried my eyes out. When I called my boyfriend, I told him. I had to, we don’t keep anything from each other. When I told him, we both cried. I know you guys think that hes a fag or not manly enough because he cried. But its like losing the love of your life or your best friend! He said we can work something out. He said he would wait for me and he would come and visit me wherever I was going.
One night me, my bf, and 2 of my friends went to the movies. During the movies my boyfriend looked at me and said “will you marry me?” I said yes and he, then, took my left hand and said “someday I will put a ring on that finger. I promise.” I smiled and told him I hope he keeps that promise.
So I have a boyfriend who I love more than anything in this world and im about to lose him. I don’t know what to do. Can you help, please? I would do anything to stay with him.