What do I do, when I love two?
My story goes like this..
Last summer, I joined this summer camp and met a guy. His name was Lawrence. Lawrence and I became friends throughout the camp and kind of grew fond of each other. After the camp, we went our separate ways. Though we live on two different worlds, that didn't stop us from seeing each other and communicating with each other. After a few weeks after the camp, we started dating each other. We spent almost everyday with each other and I loved him so much. But I knew he was my karma. I played with boys before and I felt that he was the guy who would break my heart. Unfortunately, I was right. Well, he didn't break up with me or cheat on me or anything. We just stopped communicating. No one broke up with anyone but then he broke my heart without even trying. And I was really starting to fall for him deeply. Then, in the middle of all my heartaches and emotional breakdowns, he arrived. Luke arrived. At first, I didn't like Luke at all. I had no intention of dating him because he was my bestfriend's ex-boyfriend. But Luke liked me so much. He dumped my bestfriend for me. He sacrificed a lot for me. He did everything to get my attention. And every day with him, I little by little, forgot about Lawrence. So I decided to give him a chance only to find out, I liked him and actually learned to love him :) After 5 happy months with Luke, he came back. Lawrence. And right then and there, all my memories with him, my heartaches, came back in a split second. I never thought after all those months, I'd still love him. But Luke doesn't know about this. Lawrence kept on asking me to take him back. He said he can't get over me and all that. At first, I thought about giving up Luke for Lawrence. But Luke was so loving. He completed me in ways I cannot explain. I cannot leave Luke. But I cannot leave Lawrence too. I love the both of them and I don't know what to do :(
Now, I am still in a relationship with Luke and I love him so much. I really cannot afford to lose him.
Lawrence, on the other hand is waiting. Waiting for me to come back to him.
IT'S JUST SOOOO HARD TO MAKE HIM WAIT.
I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
I LOVE THEM BOTH SOO MUCH :((
WHAT DO I DO WHEN I LOVE TWO?