"Love Is The Difficult Realization That Something Other Than oneself Is Real"-Iris Murdoch
"Love Is The Difficult Realization That Something Other Than Oneself Is Real"
Why is this something that most people can't comprehend? Is being in love really that hard? It shouldn't be. I never asked for much of anything. I didn't like Birthdays and i thought that Christmas was for children and that i didn't care if i was considered too old. I never asked for flowers or anything like that. All that i ever asked for was to be loved and not be lied to. Is that too much to ask for? Apparently it is. WAY TO MUCH. The first time i loved someone as more than my best friend his name was Trevor and i was 13. I always knew that he was the one but i wasn't prepared for all the lies that he told. I wasn't prepared at how much i didn't know that real Trevor John. I knew it toward the end of our relationship. I never knew how much he had lied to me until i looked his straight in the eye and asked him about the ridiculous stories that had filled my life for almost 6 months. I was in love but with something more than i could handle. And i wasn't prepared for that. He broke my heart on September 14th. I cried all night long but at Midnight i promised myself that after 12:01 i would never shed a single tear over this wonderful puppet master. I never again put myself in the position of being loved again. I never wanted anyone to tell me that i was the first person that they loved. I never wanted to decide if my heart was worth selling to another boy. But that's when i broke a promise. I promised that i would never give my heart away but i did. And his name is Tyler he is tall and handsome. He is mysterious and very lovable. He gives me his "Tyler hugs" which is closer to a bear hug than to a human hug. His big arms wrap around me and fight all my fears away. He is wonderful in every way. I love him to death.