Only One I Want
I'm 18 years old- just turned in August. Before my birthday, I was going out with this guy, Nick. He's a little less than a year older than me, he just turned 19, and before we went out we were best friends. He was- is- the only guy I've ever been able to trust and depend on to never let me down. But after going out for one week, I broke up with him because he would not stay the night with me at my apartment. That was back in June.
Now it's October and we've been doing a sort of friends-with-benefits type of thing. The problem is, is that I want him more than I've ever wanted anyone. And before you go thinking that I'm utterly pathetic for not getting over him when I'm the one who broke up with him, allow me to explain how completely compatible him and me are...
Firstly, he's taller than me- and I'm about 5'7" so that's a good thing. He's probably one of the sweetest guys I have ever met- and I've dated a lot of people. He's the only one who can make me feel like everything is going to be alright when I'm at my lowest of lows, and he's the only one who can make me laugh when I'm sad. I can never stay mad at him when he makes stupid mistakes, because in the end he always makes it up to me. See, I'm the type of girl who likes little things- not flowers, or jewlery, or chocolates... I like cute txt messages, late night phone calls just to say goodnight, holding my hand in the car... He does all those things on a daily basis.
I've had many other opportunities come along, some guys who were drop-dead gorgeous and could make a girl melt in his hand. But no one can make me smile like he can, and no one could ever take his place in my heart. There have been many times when I've said I'll never talk to him again, because he likes to play games with my head and ignore me for a day or two- just out of the blue. But when he does start talking to me again, and explains why he did what he did, I just can't be mad at him or blame him. I'm completely head over heels for him, and I don't even think he's knows how much.
He is the love of my life- my best friend, my SuperSmash Bros rival, my roommate (since I pretty much live at his house), my secret keeper, and my lover. I hope to never lose him from my life, even if I can only have him as a friend. He's the one person that it would kill me to lose. I love him more than anyone, and I always will.