I have been corresponding with my friend for a while. He showed me that I could trust him and learned that I could. We started confiding in each other all of our hopes, dreams, disappointments and goals. We soon realized that most of our dreams were the same.
Recently, I started to hurry home to chat with him. I found that if I missed one of our chats that my heart hurt. I started to realize that what I was feeling for him was a lot stronger than friendship. I've been hurt a lot and so fear of being hurt made me keep my feelings to myself.
Yesterday, as we were talking, he said he had something for me. He had sent me the song, "Love of a Lifetime", by Firehouse. As I listened to this song with new meaning, tears rolled down my face. He had the same feelings that I did. Neither of us has said those three magical words, but the feelings are strong. We have yet to meet, and that thought doesn't scare me at all.
You see, I fell in love with the inner part of him. Looks are only a casing to the heart and soul. Love is not a picture, it is a feeling and that's what I fell in love with. We each have 3 children, and hope that we will spend the rest of our lives together.
There is one thing that I have learned: there is someone out there for all of us. I wasn't looking for love -- it found me.
I am so glad that it is with my best friend.
Updated 9th May
I wrote a while back about finding a man on the internet who was offering me the world. I checked back and found that someone told me that I should go for it.
I wanted to write again and let you know what has happened. Mike has told me that he has fallen in love with me. Mike also has a 13 year old son, and we have also talked. The other day, during one of our talks he told me that he hopes that his dad and i get married and that I could be his stepmom.
Mike and I and little Mike, along with my 3 children are meeting this coming weekend. I am so nervous, because I am not real sure what these feelings that I have are. I know that when he isn't online, I am miserable. He leaves me a message every morning before he goes to work. When we are online together, no one else seems to matter to me. We talk about everything and then realize that we have talked for 6-8 hours.
Mike asked me if I would ever reconsider getting married again, and something in my heart is saying that I would be a fool not to marry this man.
I really think that this is what I have spent my life looking for. Can love really happen over the internet before meeting face to face? I really don't know, but my heart is certainly saying YES