My first love that broke me...
the first night our lips locked and the touch of his hands embracing my body, my heart palpitated crazy... I knew he is the guy i want to give my heart to.
we were first together and spent effortlessly hours with each other talking and being with each other.
Just he made me feel amazing. we both like the cold for its intimacy and cuddling and just loving each other. we were both so oblivious to the outside world!
since we started going out i was never so happy before. we were both in the same school and we differed two years which was fine. i was more mature than any other girl in my grade. He was my life my everything cause he showed me how to love, he showed me not to be scared to show my emotions and show my true feelings which i keep encased within my heart...
we have done so much together and learned about each others personalities. and we were so in love. knew exactly what made each other tick... So Nine months into our relationship i found out that i was going to move that very same year. Both our worlds were crushed and our love had lost something in that moment that never came right!
Long distance was not in his plans. but it would've only been for a year!
and would have been able to see him often like monthly at least.
he had no trust in me and he was a very very jealous guy, but i was going to prove my love for him was real and didn't want to loose him!
One morning i jumped on a plane without letting anyone know where i was. Only for the day though.... I surprised him and we were both in tears and i couldn't love him more!!! we spent a wonderful evening together...
I flew back next morning. i would've been clean, but folks got me and grounded me obviously i was going to accept the consequences but it was every min worth it. i was grounded and everything taken away my phone, email, letters anything my parents stopped us communicating with each other. So i started a job to save money and buy a phone!!! So i did but to speak in silence in our little house was almost impossible;e but i had to make it work other wise he would just abandon me... but we cried over the phone about how much we miss each other and how much we love each other.
So two months after he went on a tour and cheated in me with some girl and i was ripped and torn apart!!! i broke it off with him even though it was more than any pain i could ever imagine, but i was so hurt it scared the hell out of me.
He didn't even say anything. He phoned me three weeks after wanting to try again and how sorry he was wit tears in his eyes!! I couldn't go back he hurt me too much so we said our goodbyes over the phone...
stayed in contact as friends but for both of us in between we fought and cried but out of anger bout the change that caused this whole mess!!!
YEAR LATER... I SAW HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME AFTER WE BROKE UP AND ITS AS IF WE WERE NEVER APART CAUSE WE FELT SO COMFORTABLE WITH EACH OTHER IT WAS AMAZING, BUT I DIDNT GO BACK TO HIM, WE JUST SPENT A DAY WITHOUT ANY HEARTACHING THOUGHTS OR CURSING WORDS...
WE SAID GOODBYE IN PEACE AND I HAD MY TEARS AGAIN BUT I HID THEM AND KNEW THAT FOREVER TILL THE DAY I DIE I WILL NEVER LOVE SOMEONE AS MUCH AS I DID HIM! ' I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU MY BOY'