The Best Friend
For the longest time I have been in love with my best friend. He's always been there for me and the connection between us is unbelievable. There was never a day when we were apart and even though he's been through a string of relationships that never lasted more than six months, he always made time for me. There eventually came a time when I couldn't bear leaving him in the dark anymore and I came clean about how I feel. He merely looked through me and said he loved me but only as a friend. I felt my world shatter and felt as though I'd been stabbed a million times by invisible daggers. We didn't speak to one another for several months, mainly because I was embarrassed by the rejection. But over time I realized it was silly to let our friendship go to waste and we began talking again, and things returned to normal. He brought up the conversation we had earlier that led to the bitterness between us and i brushed it off saying it was a spur of the moment and didn't contain substance. My heart felt heavy and with each word I said that denied my love for him made little cuts in my heart, when he looked deep into my eyes and said, "you are the kind of woman I would marry and spend the rest of my life with, not someone I'd date for six months and leave broken hearted". But if a man is allowed time to grow and mature, wouldn't his ideas of the ideal woman change? He doesn't realize that over the years he's cut my heart out and broken it countless times that for him to make me wait until he is ready is just ridiculous. But here I am going about my life like usual, allowing love to fill every inch of my body, and living each day as if it were my last, just wishing today would be the day my best friend told me he loved me the way i did.
Irfan i want to marry you, and spend the rest of my life with you, I just don't know if I can wait a lifetime for you.