Your still young
there once was a boy i gave my heart to
he showered me with all the world could offer
and.... i fell in love
everything felt as right as it could ever feel
my world felt perfect, as long as he was in it
years went by, and we over came so many obstacles together,
when life was against me he was there to help me pull through
when i didn't have the strength to make it through
he was there to pick me up
which made our love grow stronger then ever
i went away to a training course in the army for just over a month.
it felt like a life time but i eventually made it through and achieved excellence in all rounds but still,
eager to see my baby boy my world felt incomplete until the moment i ran into his arms.Once again my life felt indestructible.
that night as we were laying in bed, he says to me
"baby i want to tell you how i feel
but i don't know how
listen to the lyrics of the this song
it says it all......."
(starts fiddling with the radio...
Chris Brown - 'Say Goodbye')
for those who don't know the song,
Its Not something you want your man to dedicate to you
not knowing what to expect i thought to myself
'this is such i sweet suprise, i love you from the middle of my heart'
as i was laying there in his arms
and the words were being sung from the radio
slowly my smile felt weak
my hear started skipping beats
my mouth could not speak
and yet i had so much to say
and in that split second i just felt my world come tumbling down on me
that was the last time we spoke
couple of weeks went by and my life just hit rock bottom
his life seem to keep climbing up the ladder to success
life seemed pointless and i was ready to give up on
it i just felt so alone, like no one understood me
but then i found the courage to at least try and better myself
i had my family with me to help me through as well
so, i decided to moved away cos being in his presence was not helping at all, that was the easy part,
i found a way to make it easier on myself which was to feel hatred towards him and that's how it stay till a few days ago
its been just over a year since this hapend and i believe i have let go now,
we still haven't spoken but i hear he is doing well,
and i can truly say im pleased to hear it too
yet every now and then my minds tends to drift off down memory lane.
as for myself
im just bizi being young and making the most of it
as for the broken heart, its will defiantly be scard for life
all though i feel we will never get back together again
one things for sure
there will always be a special place for him in my heat
for he is my very first true love...
by the way, i bet you would have never guessed im only 19
there's plenty of time to fall in love girls
don't feel rushed to find it either
if its meant to be it'l find you
till that time.....
live life while your young
really i just wanted to share my story with the world