Why Can't I get Over Him
I met this man at a bar and I was plastered and he was sober, his girlfriend was cheating on him so he came to the bar to confront her and break it off., he did that and after that he walked out, I followed him out of the bar and asked him why he was letting her win. He said she wasn't, I told him if he left the bar she won, I told him to get a pretty woman and get on that dance floor and show her that you don't give a damn! He looked at me and said let's go!, I'm like ok, we danced and danced I was all over him, kissing, grinding and everything, sitting on his lap, when the night was thru he asked for my number as he walked me to my friends car and kissed me and said I will call you tomorrow. I thought yeah right. Well sure enough, at about 11am the next morning he was calling me from work. It was so sweet and made me feel so good about myself. So we talked on the phone every day for two weeks, I wouldn't let him come up here, yet, wasnt ready for him to meet my three kids, Finally, I agree on Friday night to let him come up here, we started dating that night, he told me he loved me. We dated a few more days and he spent the night and never went back home, he moved in, two months later he bought me a diamond ring and got on one knee and asked me to marry him.
We got married that December, we had a cowboy wedding , since we met at a bar, country music bar. The wedding was beautiful and my cowboy took my breath away. That was one of the happiest days of my life. We had our ups and downs like most marriages, nothing new there but I knew without a shade of a doubt that this man loved me and was my destiny. I felt he was my angel sent down from GOD, I loved him more than I thought I could ever love anyone again. WE were together almost 9 years all together, then the heartache became a reality, he decided that I wasn't the one anymore and walked out on me, gave me the line that I love you and always will. I will never love anyone the way I love you or never have. I can still see myself with you for the rest of our lives, but I don't want to be with you anymore. Talk about shocker and heartache, my heart fell to the floor. I don't know how to go on without him in my life. He want talk to me or anything, my heart is broken into millions of pieces and I have no way of repairing it, I actually took a bunch of pills to go to sleep hoping I wouldn't have to wake up without him here. Stupid, yes , but I have no idea of how to move on. Its only been a few weeks I am working two jobs to make ends meats and still struggling and the worse part is not having here with me. If there was anything I could do to change his mind I would do it in a heart beat. I would lay down my life to prove to him that I love him so much and need him so much. Someday I hope he knows that this woman on crawley dale road still wants him and needs him and is always here for him. The door will always be open for him if he ever wants to come home! I love you Tim and always will!