It all started march the 4th this year...
Me and my 'girlfriend' (I'll call her M) (we saw eachother for the first time) held a forummeeting where about 12 other people would meet eachother, mostly for the first or second time. Those people included my future girlfriend, where this story actually is about (I'll call her D). I immediatly felt something for D, but I didn't dare to say it or anything. Some weeks later, M broke up with me. I felt *censored* for 2 days (so it wasn't that serious). A couple of weeks later, I met D in the city. She was a little closer to me than I was used to, but I liked it. Half an hour later we were hugging, kissing and I had the time of my life, for the first time, I felt REALLY in love, and it was the best thing that ever happened to me. We had a great time. But after almost two months (now more than three weeks ago), she broke up with me. I was and still am devistaded 'bout it. Yesterday I told her how I felt, she said she had to think about it. Before I told her, I felt mostly sad, depressed, full of feelings and stuff, now they are at least 10 times as strong. Sudden crying fits (extremely often), suicidal thoughts, more agression than ever, extreme thoughts and so on...