happily ever after?
I met my boyfriend 4 years ago and we have been together for 3 years. I am an attention seeker - the type of girl who always wants to be the life of the party. I have had several short term relationships and enjoyed the odd drunken pash with a cute stranger.
Owen is the guy in the corner talking to his best mate with a shy smile. He was in my social group and I thought he was quite cute. I struck up a few conversations with him but he never really gave much back so I gave up on him. Over time we had a few conversations but nothing earth shattering.
One night we were at a close friends birthday and there were a few people gathered in a group chatting and drinking. There were no seats left so I sat on his lap. Eventually people drifted off and it was just the two of us. I barely remember it but somehow we kissed. It was so warm and safe I just knew I had found someone special.
The following week I called him and we arranged to go on a date. We went on a couple of dates and eventually became boyfriend and girlfriend. Over the next few months we got to know eachother. It wasn't always smooth sailing and we had the odd fight. Neither of us are very confrontational so our fights were usually just ignoring eachother until one of us apologised.
We were nearing our 1 year anniversary when my younger brother suddenly passed away. It was an awful time but I was grateful to have Owen. Initially he was great, very supportive and caring but eventually he got sick of my grieving and wanted the 'old' Jenna back.
I started going out a lot and met some new friends. One night I kissed another guy. I told Owen the next day and he was devastated. He ended things with me and I was relieved. Being with him felt so stressful. I dated the other guy for awhile but Owen knew nothing about it. He was trying to win me back but I wasn't interested. After a month the new guy ended things with me and I decided to give Owen another try.
It was really tough and we fought a lot. After 2 months I met a tall handsome stranger and began a one month long affair. It was very self-destructive and I was out of control. I let go of this other guy and refocused all of my attention on Owen.
It has beeen very difficult but the rewards have been amazing. I love him so much and he really loves me. I have not cheated on him again and have not told him about the other time. I think it would hurt him too much and it would be selfish of me to tell him. I have to carry the guilt of how I betrayed him.
Our story is not that exciting but it is real. I have a man who I love and who loves me. I truly hope that we are together for ever and that our love only gets stronger.