Tiny Heart
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The song Tiny Heart by Flyleaf goes all too well with the situation i am. "Tiny heart stuck inside yourself why won't you open up for me" i met this guy last year and he and i became really great friends he's got that personality that's insane and always makes me laugh. that's why i like him so much. last year i wasn't happy..depressed even..but he was always there at my darkest hours and actually cheered me up- probably without meaning to. anyways i am weak-hearted and fall for someone very easily. so there isn't any wonder to why i'd fall for him he was extremely nice, not bad looking, and funny. all these great qualities he friends with the whole grade practically, everyone loves him. made me jealous haha. by that christmas i gave him a card with a poem. im a poet and i wrote a card expressing my feelings. now looking back on it it makes me feel weird cause i opened up to him so much yet he closed off to me. so he denied me and i ran away into my little corner and it was never brought up again. thankfully we were still friends and became even greater. but i never got over him. i'd force myself to like other people. but after they refused me i always relasped back to him. a very conspicuous pattern. its a year and a half later im basically still in love with him we talk a lot on the computer, never a dull moment in our conversation even five hours at a time he's come to expect my company into the "wee" [haha] hours of the morning [that is on not school days..] so we're closer then ever i feel. and it seems like he keeps leading me on but i know better not to be as foolish as before and fall for his words cause i think they're empty but i can never be sure what he's truly thinking even though he's really open with his personality, i know a part of him is closed he even said he doesn't like change and i think that's why he refuses me but hey what do i know. im only fifteen but this feels like love to me i really cant tell if he feels likewise..hes a difficult person to understand and no amount of words can explain an entity and this story doesn't do justice and he keeps luring me in closer and i keep falling for it whether its intentional or not and he keeps fooling me with his devious trickery a part of me cant stand it. but most of me loves him |