I had just started a new job and met the most wonderful man. Joe and I would be working side by side. I knew I would have plenty of opportunities to get to know him. One day while there was a group of us in the lunch room, one of the women asked Joe when his wife was due to have their third child. I was in shock (he didn't wear a wedding ring). We became close over the next couple of months. There was some innocent flirting and then it happened.
I was going out with some friends for drinks and I asked Joe to come along. Well one thing led to another and we were out in the car kissing before I knew it. After that night I figured it was just something that happened in the drunken state we were in.
The next day at work we were a little uncomfortable but nothing unbearable. A week went by and I figured I was right, it didn't mean anything. Then Joe asked me to go to lunch. We talked and laughed and then he dropped the bomb on me. He told me he was in love with me and wanted to continue to date me. I was so torn. I never met anyone like him in my life. He made me feel like we were the only two people on earth. I fell in love with him even though I knew someday things would end between us.
After six months of spending as much time as possible with him, he told me we couldn't see each other anymore. He said it was too much for him to handle knowing how I felt about him and not being able to give me what I deserved. We still work side by side and I think that's what kills me the most.
I love him with all my heart and soul and I know he loves me too. I can see it in his eyes and every once in a while I catch him watching me. We had such passion and I know we were meant to be together forever.
I am still not dating anyone and I guess that's because I'm waiting for the day he will leave his wife and love me forever. I know that day will never come, but I can't get past these feelings.
I honestly believe that there is one person in this world for everyone. I know Joe is my one person as I am his. I could never love anyone the way I love him. I will just continue to wait and want.
Someday we will be together because I know we were meant to be.