We were little kids when Anna had an imaginary friend named 'Turney by the sea', that' one of my favorite childhood memories. I was six, and she was 5 when her family moved next door. we were inseparable ever since. because of our friendship, even our parents got close. her older brother Finnegan, 24 married my sister Kaley 26. we're 21 now. we both ride together to school everyday. we're still best friends. last night she admitted to me, what I have suspected for the last two years. she said for the last 6 years she has been in love with me. but the truth is.....I am in love with someone else. I took her to breakfast this morning. I told her. it's her sister Gina, 28.
I have always loved her since I was old enough to notice girls. but Gina as older, and dated other guys. she moved home 2 months ago to stay with her parents until she got on her feet because she just got divorced. she has a two year old daughter Lanie. I have been spending a lot of time with both. Gina thinks she is in love with me, but just say's that she needs time. I don't want to loose her, or Anna. I don't want to loose Anna's friendship. I do love Anna in a way, and what if loving Gina ruins every chance of that, or even being friends. Anna won't even talk to me, and she said I broke her heart. she doesn't want to ride to school anymore, and now said she is still going to go through with moving out of her parents house, quitting school, and moving to New Braufels....TX...we live in southern Oklahoma.
I don't know what to say. Gina doesn't want to hurt Anna either, but I was never Anna's. so I can't loose Gina over this.
Gina - I am glad to see you here. back in Oklahoma. and back in my life. they say these things happen for a reason.
Anna - yes, at one time I had feelings for you. When we were juniors in high school...you couldn't tell me then, and you dated Gary Beamin instead. I was so jealous when you played basketball with us, and kissed him. I felt so invisible. It's a long time ago though. I think I am in love with Gina. I'd love to be able to talk to you about it, and for you to support me. I know it takes time, but don't do anything stupid in the mean time......don't run away from me.
You are my best friend. if I had to - I'd choose you - but please don't ask me too. I don't know if I can ever love you. more than a friend. I am sorry to see you cry, and hurt. I'd never want to do that. just like I know you don't want to hurt me. I am sorry you believe I chose the wrong sister. but Gina needs me, and I need her.
I am so so so so so so sorry. I am not trying to mislead you - and I never have.
I am so so sorry.
If you two sisters, think I'm going to ruin your relationship - I'll stay away. that's the last thing I'd want to do. you are both practically like my sisters.
I am sorry to do this - Beau