The Girl that I would die for...Shannon
01 February, 2009
It's the beginning of 2009 and and my story started in 2005. We are separated right now, but i think one day we will get back together. She currently doesn't seem like she wants to, but i believe our love was so strong, we will get married one day. My story goes something like this...
She was 13 and i just turned 14. We had been friends for a little while and i wanted to date her so bad. I thought she was the most beautiful girl i had ever seen and i knew the first time is aw her, i wanted to marry her. She was my first everything and anything. We had our differences and we fought, but we always made up because we loved each other so much. Twice, the fights got so bad, we broke up. But within a few weeks, we were back together. Everything seemed to go amazing for a while and nothing could get in between us. We were deeply in love and all both of us ever wanted, was each other. We hung out with our friends occasionally, but we usually just stayed together because we had so much fun. A few months ago, problems in my personal life caused me to get extremely "confused". The horrible economy caused my dad to almost lose his job, my parents would be constantly fighting, and a bunch of other things. I never told my girlfriend these things because i was so afraid she wouldn't want to be part of my life anymore. I wanted to marry this girl and spend my entire life with this girl and i never wanted anything to get in the way of this. One day, i decided that i would end our relationship with her until the things in my life calmed down. This was by far, my biggest regret in my life. Two weeks after we broke up, i found out she had been hooking up with another kid. I was heart broken. I could barely speak because all i did was cry. I couldn't figure out how she could move on so quickly. The girl i loved with all my heart and soul, was with another guy. I tried to contact her, and after relentlessly trying to get her back, she took me back. We spent new years together and everything seemed amazing. I thought we were going to stay together for the rest of our lives. Two days later, she calls me and tells me she doesn't feel the same anymore and that I deserve to be with someone who feels the same way. I couldn't take it anymore. For a few days, i literally went crazy. I lost 16 pounds and i slept an average of 2 hours a night. All i would do at night, is lay in my bed thinking of her and that other person. I couldn't think of life without her. It's been a month since she broke up with me, and everyday that has passed, I've tried to get her back. I've given her presents, flowers, poems, notes, songs, everything I could think of. Nothing seems to work. She thinks the reason why i broke up with her is because i got bored of her and that i didn't care for her feelings. But the true reason is, i cared for her so much, i didn't want to do anything to ruin us. She still hooks up with this kid, and it kills me to think about it. I asked her to prom but of course she said no but she is going with this kid. My love for her has grown to such an amount it's hard to concentrate in school because all i do is think about her. I would do anything to turn back the clock and go back to just me and her. I would do anything to show her my love and that i want to make her the happiest person in the world. I would do anything to be called her boyfriend again. I love this girl more than words can ever express and i hope one day she can realize this. I want to marry you Shannon.
My moral of the story is: Don't let petty problems get in the way of your love. If you truly love someone, always tell them the truth. Don't ever let that special someone go because they might never want you back again. Relationships are about expressing your love and making sure your lover is happy. I learned this the hard way so don't make the same mistakes i did.
If you ever read this Shannon, i love you so much and i hope one day you will come back to me. I will treat you the way i always should have treated you and i will never hurt you ever again, i promise you this.