What should I do?
02 January, 2009
I'm 16 and I've met this guy. He's 17 and we're in the same school as each other. That's how I came to have met him.
We have known each other since September 2008 and Its only recently Ive started to realise I have strong feelings for him. But there's a problem.
I've had some really bad experiences in the past so I find it hard to trust anybody and am always doing something to hurt or push everyone away before they can hurt me.
I don't want to push him away because I like him a lot and he says he understands that I want to take things really slowly but I'm scared of messing up again. I don't want to lose him and I know this sounds kind of Pathetic but he's the only good thing in my life right now.
We've talked about my past, and about his and it seems that we have more in common than I ever thought.
I've already said before that I find it hard to trust what people say to me but he tells him he loves me. Hes so gentle and kind, caring and giving. He tries his hardest to protect me from things because he does't want to see me hurt and I can't help but believe him but there will always be that nagging doubt in my head so I feel I will never be able to be his properly.
It upsets me because I want to make him as happy as he has made me but I just don't know how...