16 July, 2007
I've now finally figured out what the hell's going on here. I have been cursed. I am supposed to walk alone in this world. It has to be true. Everyone that I get close to just leaves me cold and alone.
I used to be in a relationship and once I expressed my feelings for that person, they became someone else, different, even though they expressed the same feelings for me. Then I gave myself time to heal and found a new person. We dated for 5-6 months and when I asked him if we could get serious, he looked in my eyes and said, "you are more like a sister to me and I don't do incest" I asked him, so you usually give your sister tongue and feel her up when you kiss her. (liars I hate them) Last one, I met this really cool guy at walmart of all places. We talked for about a month and things seemed to finally start looking up. Then he just stopped talking to me as if I had offended him.
So, I finally had my fill of trying to find love, cause it's not intended for me. I have love from my family and love from my friends, but that is not the love I desire to be shown. I am one of not so many that have been cursed to walk alone. Loves plays tricks on me, but I've had enough and I won't fall for its tricks again.