Should I Wait For His Return?
Well, when it all started off we were just best friends; but soon our friendship blossomed into more than just a bond...it grew into love. And now that he is gone, my heart feels empty, like I need to wait for his return.
But my only question is...How long do I have to wait?
One day we were together at lunch. We were just sitting there, talking to our friends about the up coming dance.
"Do you think you're going?" asked one of my best friends.
"I would, but I don't have anyone to go with. But who knows? It might be fun!"
"That's the spirit!"
I was just about to chomp down on some chips when my guy friend, Michael, tapped me on the shoulder. He motioned for me to come close so that he could whisper something to me.
Did I listen? Of course I did! I had a major crush on the guy!
"Don't think the wrong way about this but would you like to go to the dance with me?"
I swear my heart must have been beating over one thousand beats a second.
We didn't talk much for the rest of lunch, but I just sat there thinking 'Oh My Gosh.'
After we were dismissed we went somewhere to talk.
"So..." I asked, "Do you really want me to go to the dance with you?"
"Of course I do."
"Well...the are a lot of reasons."
Then I realized that two of my friends were there.
"Hey! What are you doing?"
"Will you guys just go away? We are trying to have a private conversation!"
"Fine," they said, but quite frankly I didn't believe them.
We sat there for a bit, and then we started talking a little but more.
"So..." he asked, "Would you like to be my girlfriend?"
But I was cut off.
"I have to go."
So we left and as we were walking I said, "Of course I would."
I got his number and soon we were spending all of our time with each other.
He made me laugh so hard and just made me want to kiss him!
We would always pass notes and he wrote such the sweetest things!
He told me the I was the best girlfriend that he had ever had. The things he wrote made me so happy to be with him.
Sometimes he had tried to kiss me but we were so nervous and we were ALWAYS interrupted.
One day at lunch we were sitting there and he tapped my shoulder. I turned to look at him and he kissed me. Right there on my left cheek.
Eventually we finally did get a real kiss in there and it felt great.
Then one day he said he had something to tell me.
I tried to weasel it out of him, but he wouldn't tell me.
Finally we were face to face and he told me that he loved me.
I was so thrilled by the fact that he loved me and I honestly loved him too.
It didn't feel like the fake love that you see off of television. In fact I haven't seen him in over a year and i STILL love him and I miss him so much.
But we were both heading for different places. I knew I wouldn't see him again for three years at the least and that fact tore me apart. I really wish that we could have had more time together.
I have his picture in a locket and every time I feel afraid or loose faith I look at his picture inside and it seems to keep a ring of protection around me and in my head a voice says ' I know you'll keep me safe.'
Should I wait for him?