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When it hurts soo bad
i gave this man 10 years of my life. since i was 19, now about to be 30. he was my first and last..in 10 years the only man i loved and would do anything for cheated on me 4 times. when we layed in bed and talked at night and i told my deepest secrets and feelings to him, he'd throw them back in my face during an argument. He'd use our child to hurt me. Our son is 7 and he says he doesn't want to see him again until he is 10 to make us feel like his other 3 kids and their baby momma's. saying that because non of the others know their dad, and mine does. he has been there since day one, but i am starting to realize it was me that was there. chasing him everywhere. It hurts so bad because i gave him so much of me and all i wanted was for him to love me. and for 10 years he did nothing but love what i do for him. god.. it hurts so bad. what is wrong with me?? is my ass not big enough?? i cook, clean, work, and i am a good mother. and i held him down for all of my adult life, and he sucked it all out of me. but it's my fault because i let him. my son and i will be okay. and we'll take it one day at a time. but i promise myself, there will never be another...not that i love like that. i won't let it happen. ya'll please be careful. i wish someone would have told me. love, hurts..