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I can't seem to get over him
I'm a 19 year old college student...I was with my ex boyfriend for 2 years. He was my first love, my first everything. We spent every day together as well as many nights. He told me he was in love with me and promised me so much. I wanted to marry him, I adored him. Although I know our relationship wasn't perfect i still loved him and wanted to be wit him and only him... four months ago he breaks up with me telling me "he fell out of love"...i have never been in such agony in my life...he wouldn't tell me what i did wrong...I know I made mistakes and would argue a lot but not for this to have happened....we haven't talked in almost a month and it's ripping me apart...i have never been more depressed and hurt in my whole life...this is HARD...i can't imagine living without him, i have dated after him but nobody compares to him...I don't know how to deal with this, no matter what I do nothing seems to make this pain go away...He was my best friend, my love, my everything. It literally feels like my heart has been broken into a million pieces and this incredible pain has replaced it. I miss him each and every day. Worst part is I get no phone call, not even a "hey how are you?" i can't believe he just left me. In my darkest, loneliest moments, he wasn't there. he doesn't care anymore. He was the one I turned to for everything. Now there is nobody there to comfort me. I pray to God but nothing seems to make this pain go away. It has been four months and it hurts just the same as the first day he broke up with me. If time heals all wounds, it's not working for me!! This is the worst thing I've ever had to deal with and I don't know what to do. It's so hard not to reach out to him and call him but i know he would simply act cold and i cant handle that. :( Why does it hurt so much?