He told me he loved me?
01 August, 2002
I hadn't planned on doing anything that night. It had been snowing so bad that week and they finally called off classes at the college I was at. A couple of friends and I had been lounging around all day long, finally we decided to go to a small pub around school. While we were there one of my friends called up her new boyfriend to have him come and join her. He had ended up bringing a friend with him and it was all I could do to keep from smiling the biggest smile when I saw him, and then it hit me. I was wearing sweats and no makeup! He liked me none the less. We ended up talking all night long and through that next morning. We couldn't believe we found each other that night. The next few months were amazing. We started talking about our wedding and the wonderful family we were going to start soon after. I couldn't believe it was finally happening to me! He said he had never been this in love. He also told me he'd die for me. One night he went out with his friends and I went over to a friends house. I got a phone call that night from another friend of mine telling me the one thing you never want to hear, "He's here with another girl". I didn't believe it until I saw it for myself. I ended up leaving him, thinking he would never try to reach me. He did, and promised me he would never mess up such a great thing again.
A few months after we rented a house. I would be living there the first month by myself so he could finish up his last months rent at his apartment. He said he couldn't wait until he was moved in, he would get us a dog then.
I started spending more and more nights by myself waiting for him like he asked me to. We would talk, and he would promise me we were OK and tell me how much he loved me. I finally got tired of crying myself to sleep at night knowing he wasn't coming through again. I wrote him a letter and told him I loved him but I needed someone who made me a feel loved, like he used to. That night I went over to give him the letter. I found him with another woman. He told me I was crazy for thinking we were ever going to work out. So now I'm left alone in a home that was supposed to be ours, wondering why he lied about everything. Why did he promised me we would grow old together. I can't help but worry that I won't be able to trust anyone again.
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