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A love triangle gone worse (Sorry its really long... plz read and comment)

02 May, 2007

Well first of all, I want to say that my name is Ashley and I'm 14... Now I know that people say that when you’re a teenager you can't fall in love and it's all an illusion and that teenagers don't know the meaning of love... But honestly, who does? I personally believe that you can fall in love at any age... Now this could just be because I believe that I'm in love but whatever... Here's my story... A lot of people say I'm such a drama queen for saying how much it hurts and all that jazz but every night I cry over this...

Okay so me being 14 that makes me in gr. 9... But this story starts last year... In gr. 8...

 

I had just moved to a new town and didn’t have many friends… Then I met this girl named Sam… We started getting closer and we eventually became best friends, we remain best friends to this day… And I met lots of friends through her… One of her friends that I really got close to was a boy named Randy… Eventually I ended up crushing on Randy… Now I knew that he liked me as well… But there was a problem… Sam also really liked Randy… I didn’t know what to do… I really really liked Randy but so did Sam… And I didn’t want to hurt my best friend… So Randy and I decided to just remain friends… And then one day Sam ran up to me with one of the biggest smiles on her face that I had ever seen… Sam had met a really nice boy and he has asked her to hang out at lunch and to bring some friends… So Sam invited Randy and I… I said duh, of course I’d want to… and Randy said sure, but only if he could bring a friend that had just moved to town and he wanted us to meet… So it was settled… Me, Sam, Sam’s new friend , Randy, and Randy’s mystery friend were going to meet outside by the big tree that me, Sam, and Randy ate lunch by every day… So when lunch came around I walked out to the tree to find Sam and her friend already sitting there… “Ashley this is David, David, this is Ashley,” Sam said introducing us… We both said hi and I sat down… A few minutes later Randy and another boy walked up… “Hey Randy, this is David,” I said as Randy and this mystery guy walked up… “Hey you guys, this is Aaron, Aaron this is Ashley, Sam, and obviously David,” Randy said as him and Aaron took a seat… We all said hi and continued eating… We were all talking and having a great time… I could barely look away from Aaron… He was so adorable!... He had an awesome smile and he was wearing a tight black t-shirt so I could see he had muscles… Not to mention he seemed to always be smiling and he had a funny sense of humor and an overall great personality…  Sam, Randy, Aaron, David, I eventually became inseparable… I was crushing hard on Aaron and Randy… Sam was crushing hard on David but also a little bit on Randy still… As far as I knew though, I was in trouble… Because from what I was told and all that jazz… Aaron, Randy, and David all liked me… I was so confused… I really liked Randy but so did Sam and I didn’t want to hurt her… Sam liked David but David liked me, and I didn’t have the feelings back for him… I liked Aaron and Aaron liked me but I had known Randy longer… Plus Randy and Aaron were best friends… Which spells disaster when you think about the fact that both of them liked the same girl and the girl liked both guys back… Sam knew that the guys liked me and she was mad at me for it… Then one day, the three guys came up to me and they all asked me out and they said, “Okay, now you have to decide which guy you want,”… I was devastated… I didn’t know what to do… I mean, no matter what I did someone was going to get hurt… I got mad at them for trying to make me choose so I ran off… Over the next few days Sam moved between the four of us… And the guys kept asking me out on msn and over emails and all that considering I would walk away if they tried to talk to me in person… Then one day Aaron left a note in my locker… it said;

Ashley,

     I’m sorry that I was a part of the whole thing with me, David, and Randy trying to get you to choose… It was a stupid idea... I don’t know about the other two guys but I really wish we had never done that because now I’ve lost the girl that I have really strong feelings for… I hate this situation… I can’t have the girl I like and I’m hurting two of my best friends… Please stop walking away from me… It hurts so much when you look at me like you do… I can’t stand you being mad at me… I don’t care who you choose… As long as we can stay friends…

                           Please forgive me,

                                                    Aaron

After reading the letter I began to cry… I couldn’t believe that he cared that much… During that day he kept looking at me asking me with his eyes to come over to him and talk to him… I really wanted to… I just needed to think about some stuff… David and Randy had just given up trying to talk to me, instead they always hung out with Sam… Sam and I barely talked anymore and if we did talk it was always over msn or emails… I had pretty much become a loner at school… Aaron didn’t hang out with anyone from the group anymore either… He was always with other friends that he had met in classes… Finally one day after school I saw him walking by him self so I ran to catch up with him… “Can we talk?” I asked him catching up to him… “Sure,” He answered… “Look, I’m really sorry for putting you guys through this all and having such a big reaction to you guys trying to make me choose between the three of you… I’m just a big drama queen… I can’t stand not talking to you all,” I said… “No, you shouldn’t be sorry… We shouldn’t have tried to make you choose… It was stupid and really mean,” Aaron said… “So are we okay then?” I asked hopefully… “Yeah,” Aaron said giving me a hug… I was so happy… That was so much easier than I had expected… Within minutes me and Aaron had plans to hang out and we were laughing like when we were best friends… “Would you want to go to the movies with me tonight?” Aaron asked when we were swinging on the swings… I mean, it doesn’t have to be a date… We can just go as friends or whatever… I mean if you think it would be too weird then we don’t have to do it or whatever I just thou…” Aaron started… “Shh…” I said putting my finger over his mouth… “Of course I’ll go to the movies with you… And if its okay with you, I’d like to consider it as a date,” I said… I felt a smile creep onto my face… “Cool,” Aaron said adding (flirtatiously), “Well I’d better go home and clean up then… I’ll do my best to look as good as you… But I don’t think that’s possible,”… “Awee,” I said giving him a hug… He walked me home and told me he’d be back at 6:30 to pick me up for the movie, leaving with a kiss on the cheek… I went inside and did my hair and makeup and got nice and dressed up… I was just finishing up when the phone rang… I answered the phone and was shocked to find out that it was Sam… She asked me if I wanted to hang out with her, Randy, and David and said that they wanted to apologize to me and Aaron but Aaron had to baby sit… I told her sorry but I wasn’t allowed to go out tonight because I had a lot of homework to catch up with… She said okay bye and hung up… I felt so bad for lying to her but I didn’t know what else to do… I knew that Aaron had lied too… I finished getting ready and looked at myself in the mirror… I couldn’t remember the last time I had tried this hard to look good for a guy… I was in deep with this one… Aaron got to my house almost exactly at 6:30 and we got a ride with his parents down to the movie theatre… He said I looked gorgeous as usual and I said he looked handsome…  It was so cute… He insisted on paying for everything, we got a popcorn too share and a pop each and took our seats in the top corner of the theatre… The movie started and a couple of late people walked in the theatre… About half an hour into the movie Aaron nervously put his arm around my shoulders… I shifted closer to him and leaned against him… This date was going awesome… I was soo happy… After the movie we walked into the lobby and called my mom to come and pick us up… We were waiting in the lobby, his arm around my waist, my head rested on his shoulder, when it all went wrong… Guess who else had shown up to the movie? That’s right, Sam, David, and Randy… They looked at us and immediately started towards us… I felt Aaron pull his arm away and step to the side quickly… I felt my heart break… I couldn’t believe he was so embarrassed… So obviously Aaron and I being there and lying to the other three started a fight… The fight led to me and Sam both running off in opposite directions, Randy and David following her and Aaron chasing after me… When Aaron caught up to me and stepped in front of me and gently stopped me from running… He put his arms around me and I snuggled into him… I couldn’t believe how safe I felt in his arms… Aaron apologized for pulling away from me… And explained that he only did it because he didn’t want everyone else to get mad… And none of them had mentioned it so it seemed as though none of them had noticed… Thankfully Aaron got me smiling again before my mom showed up… I really didn’t want to talk about it too her… We dropped Aaron off at his house and I walked him up to his door… He gave me a long hug and a kiss on the cheek and said goodbye… I walked back to the car and got in… My mom asked how it went and I said awesome… Which most of it was… And we went home… I got ready for bed and lied in bed staring at the ceiling… There were a million things running through my head… On one side I was like totally happy… I mean like, I had an awesome guy that I really like… But then on the other hand there was the whole thing with Sam and them… I didn’t know what to do… Over the next few days both Aaron and I tried apologizing to all three of them but they all ignored us both… Aaron and I continued hanging out… And about a week after the movies he asked me to be his girlfriend… Of course I said yes… So my love story was turning out awesome… Too bad my friend sitch wasn’t… Aaron and I shared our first kiss on a day that we celebrate as 1913 days… It marks the day that our town was founded… It was so romantic.. We were watching the fireworks when we both looked at each other and gazed into each other eyes… The next thing I knew his lips were on mine… I can’t explain how I felt after it… It was so special… I don’t remember ever feeling that happy before or again… Finally Sam talked to me and we started to get close again… David moved away… Me and Aaron continued to date and Randy continued to crush on me while Sam continued to crush on him… In the summer of ’06 I was out of town visiting my dad when me and some friends were partying… We all had a couple drinks… I had been crushing on one of my friends out there… And knowing I was drunk he somehow convinced me to dump Aaron… So I got my little sister to send him the email for me considering I couldn’t walk let alone send an email… Well anyways, the next morning when I woke up with a bloody hangover and my little sister told me what I had gotten her to do the night before I couldn’t believe it… I went into total depression… When I got back home my mom ended up taking me to a doctor who prescribed me anti-depresants… I tried so hard to talk to Aaron and get him back but he totally ignored me… He was convinced that I had used him… Randy wouldn’t talk to me anymore either… He went with Aaron… Sam wasn’t talking to either of the guys either… But I’m pretty sure that’s because neither of them would talk to her… So the summer ended and gr. 9 started… Neither of the guys would talk to me or Sam still… A couple of other guys asked me out but I denied them all… I just couldn’t date anyone else when I had such strong feelings for Aaron… And then that stupid day in October came… October third if you want to be exact… Aaron asked out another guy… Nicki… When I first moved to town me and Nicki were best friends… Then over the summer we had started to drift apart… But when I found out that she had said yes to Aaron I never wanted to see her again… I hated her guts… I couldn’t believe what she had done to me… Especially since I knew for a fact that she knew how strongly I felt about Aaron… 5 months came and went with me sitting in the corner crying… I have to admit I turned to drugs, alcohol, and even cut my wrists a few times (I’m completely clean and all I have is scars now)… I couldn’t stand to look at either of them… I had started to talk to Aaron again which got me happy… But I still missed him soo much… Aaron and Nicki ended up breaking up… I don’t know why… No one really does… About two weeks after Nicki and Aaron broke up Aaron asked me out again… Of course I jumped at the opportunity… I was so happy… Things were finally starting to look up again… And then, on our one month anniversary… He told me he just wanted to be friends… I was absolutely crushed… He’s back with Nicki now and I’ve never seen the two of them happier… I still cry when I see them together… And I’m still on the anti-depresants… I drink… But only once and a while at parties… I don’t do drugs anymore… And instead of cutting… My way to get my anger, sadness, and all that jazz is too go for a run… And push myself as hard as I can… The other night I went a little overboard and ended up throwing up… Aaron and Nicki have been back together for two weeks now… And I still get myself to believe every now and then that Aarons gonna turn around and give me and kiss and a hug like he used to and hold me in his arms and tell me that he never wants to be with another girl…

 

Me and Aaron only dated for a total of about four months but I believe I’m in love…

I hate myself for the mistake I made that unfaithful summer night when I dumped him…

And my advice to you is;

If you have an awesome guy don’t let him know…

There’s always gonna be that girl who’s;

Prettier than you,

Smarter than you,

Nicer than you,

Whatever…

But if that boy can’t see what an awesome girl you are…

Then honey…

He ain’t worth the tears…

And I’m working on getting back up on my feet…

I’ve got awesome friends and a loving family stretching out their arms to me for support…

And I know…

I know…

That I will get over this guy…

At least I hope I do…

Because I don’t want to live the rest of my life afraid to love because I’m so afraid of being hurt again…

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