A happiness lost forever
06 February, 2002
When I first started talking to him, I didn't dream of falling in Love. He couldn't believe that I could read his mind or tell him his thoughts, but I did. I have never met this man, I have only seen a picture. His eyes are captivating. I could just fall right into them. I didn't believe it could happen to me, to fall in Love with someone without knowing the person first, but I did. I fell hard! His kind words, his voice when I heard it for the first time on the phone. Am I crazy? If so, I don't want to be normal again. I Love this man with every inch of my being and I hope he realized that.
But... He asked me one question and asked me to answer him honestly. So I did! Was I wrong for being honest. For now he is gone. I will never know the Love, the lust, the embrace of his arms, or the look in his eyes when he would look at me. I will never know the happiness of true love for a promise and career I have made. Should I have let the promise be broken and shatter that part of my life? I know in my heart that this was true love. But I have let it slip away from me. The times we have talked are memories I will cherish for the rest of my life. But the most important memory will never happen and that is US being together for ever.
My life was empty until I met him. Then it seemed full. But now it is empty once again. I will realize in the future that this man was meant for me, but I will have to live with the fact that I did not give US a chance for a future. Am I sorry? Yes I am! Happiness is meant for two people to share and I have let my happiness slip away. I will never experience the kind of Love I have for this man again, I know it's only a once in a lifetime thing. I had my chance and I blew it. He knows who he is... I Love You very much and I know in my heart you are my soul mate.
I will always Love you for eternity!!!!!!!