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A crush over and over again
23 November, 2008
It was September 28 2006 when i first saw him. He was beautiful. I knew i would like him immediately. He was tall, cute and shy. Just how i like them. Even though i was only 10 i knew what the meaning of like was. It was in the school yard, he was in 5th grade and me 4th. It was cool at first a crush but then it grew to more. I started seeing him more and our common friends didn't help sustain this crush of mine.
One day at a early Saturday program in school. he was reluctantly there. I asked my aunt if i could stay out later,she said yes.So after was the beginning of a casual friendship. I went to the park with two of my friends Deja, and Jeniah. Guess who was there... Lover boy D. After sitting on the swings quietly for about an hour. i got my first call about coming home. I begged for another hour, yes again. So then the games really began. one of OUR common friends, Franky suggested the game cops and robbers. The boys were cops and the girls were robbers. lucky that i was a fast runner i began the chase. And who you asked chased me no one but Lover Boy D. As soon as he started running he came in my direction. So close i could smell his cheesy unwanted 5th grade boy sweat near me.The climax of this action almost killed me. But as all chain reactions as soon as his dry hands touched my bare arms, my phone rang and it was time to come home. I only wonder what would happen if he only touched me? Or if he even knew my name?
This year was only a little bit different both 6th grade and 5th grade would graduate. So i grew more inpatient and a little stalker. I knew exactly what to wear, and when to ask for the bathroom pass to watch him go to lunch. I was a quiet trapped in the closet crush. Did he notice me or did he even care? Until one day when i was waiting for my friend Chris so we could take the private van together. Chris showed up with him. As me, Chris and Lover boy walked down the street. I could hear their whole conversation. until stupid me made a comment on something one of them had said. "This is 6th grade business no 5th graders should hear this" said Chris. when all i could say was Shut up, Lover boy had to laugh. Then i tagged Chris it. They both chased me down the hill all part of my plan. when Chris tagged me i 'accidentally' fell and you know who helped me up and asked if i was okay. My heart hurt more than my twisted ankle.
During the last few weeks of 5th grade at PS 165 my older more appealing cousin started flirting with my crush. one day i looked at his profile and i read a comment posted by my cousin in spite of the fact she new i like him . from then on i never spoke to her again. and i still don't
For about 3 months i didn't even think about Lover boy until.It was my first day of middle school and aim was my main communication source. Of course i saw Him looking really cute and my heart snapped back in action. only one problem he went to RFK the school right below mine. But they had about 3 classrooms on my floor. i quickly figured if i stayed late in science every Thursday i would see him . And so it was. One day he was in the hallway and waved to me from outside my classroom door. i shyly and interestingly waved back. for a while i dint even think about him but as always when i get over him he pops up in the worst places. if it wasn't bad enough they've never even seen each other. wow she got closer to him in a day than i did in a few years. oh and my cousin liked her and they were supposedly were going to go out.es.
In our new found hangout spots me and my friends always hang out in (please don't laugh) but in McDonald's. Around the same time the song rush came out i would see him everywhere every guy i saw whether on TV or on the bus looked like him.One of my more sneaky friends Bree had aimed him and they were tight ever since until he had lost all respect for her after a conversation held while the 2 of our families(me and Bree's) were on a vacation.and this is when i knew i was in love. to the point my friends had to show me how they thought of our relationship with him. I stopped liking him
at that moment.
7th and the final grade
One day me and my friends were on our way to the library. As soon as we entered the building my heart started to beat. oh no he had to be there.And yes he was. him, my old friend Chris and some other guys i recognized from elementary school.Chris came up to me immediately and gave me a huge hug. then Lover boy started smiling at me way to hard so i smirked at him and walked away. The my noisy friends yelled "Ayy chika who was that?!" "That was him . no the one smiling." We headed upstairs to look at the whole library to get a sky view of him." at that moment i realized 3 things.
1. He might actually like you.
2. He just saw the girl he has been flirting with for the first time.
3. Their all staring up at us and laughing.
"Duck " I shouted. Me and Niaya fell to the ground as stupid Bree with the skirt on stood their clueless. As i pulled her down.The next afternoon my friends were excluding Bree from our group because she was bisexual and crushed on my crush and that was off limits to friends..
One lovely morning on my way to school he was on my bus. he didn't say anything and when i questioned him about it later on aim he blamed his shyness.